maybe, maybe not

it's amazing how our perceptions of things change. something that meant the world to you can now be completely mundane, just like something you don't give a second thought to now can sometime in the future be the reason for a life-altering decision. why is this so? why can't we ever really say that this is something that will never change, no matter what -- i will, indeed, always be passionate about collecting stamps and that will always be so.


until it's not. isn't it annoying that you can't be sure even of your own needs and desires?


you change so your view of the world and what you want it to encompass change as well; i suppose this is only natural. where that change in you comes from, well, that's completely another matter. but this flux of interests and focus points also creates a continuous state of uncertainty; you can never be sure. of course there are things that remain static, things we carry with us throughout our lives; it's not even that rare. but the truth is that even in the case of those we cannot know, never; we can just go with the assumption.


sometimes you hit, sometimes you miss. you don't know until you get there.