yawn

there's two main types of tiredness, the one that goes away and the one that doesn't. in other words, the one that has a reason -- not enough sleep -- and the one that hasn't, at least a reason you could easily point out and fix.

the first one can be extremely annoying and can bring about all kinds of side effects; anyone who has ever been tired for longer than a day for whatever reason knows this. irritation, lack or excess of appetite, short-term memory loss, aching eyes, slowness of thought -- the list is long and surely varies from person to person . but the good side is that once you catch up with your sleep, you do feel better -- even if it may take a while there is always the knowledge that this will pass, and that knowledge alone makes the tiredness easier to bear. 

and then there is the other, much more vague and shapeless tiredness; the one that is difficult if not impossible to define and that sits on you like a  piece of gum in hair. the type that makes you lose not your ability to concentrate on anything but your motivation to do so; the kind that makes you want to just sit and stare at a wall. you don't want to do anything and you don't even know why as all reason and logic escapes this kind of tiredness. it just is, in its own right; the sluggish, thick concept of paralyzing fatigue that crawls inside your every cell and makes a home there.

i have found that these two types of tiredness sometimes come hand in hand, sometimes by themselves; and one can bring about the another. what i don't know is how to treat the latter, other than to wait that it passes. due to this it is always a bit unnerving to acknowledge its presence; what if it this time doesn't leave?