turn and face the strain

time and changes; undeniably tied together. nothing is static and nothing remains as it is right now -- even if things can very well happen multiple times, not to mention the repetitive cycle of seasons and other such large scale patterns, nothing is ever the same. every single moment of our existence is unique. the thought is rather intoxicating.


change can be gradual or sudden.  gradual change is a one you grow into; the ultimate fear of waking up one morning and realizing your life has passed you by; whereas the sudden change is easy to spot, obvious and rubbed in your face -- winning the lottery or getting paralyzed in an accident. destiny, says someone; coincidence, says i.


gradual change is somewhat more interesting and also more dangerous as you don't necessary even notice it unless you really stop to look at the state of things.  even if  the sudden one tends to make bigger shifts in the course of your life -- or maybe it only feels like that because the amount of change is compressed into a one single moment and not spread out as it is in the case of gradual change -- gradual change you fall into, slowly, and if you don't pay attention it is possible to end up in a point you never would have wanted to be in, had you been given that option as a sudden change. 


the difficulty, of course, is that you get only one shot. you can never know if the choices you make will be the right ones until you have done them; and you can never make those exact choices again. we can't go back in time, and even if we could we wouldn't end up where we started.