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and it is moments like these that keep me going; the pinpoints in time when i feel amazing, and pure, and i haven't a worry in the world. and yet they are nothing remarkable, these moments, nothing spectacular - in fact, if i were to describe why exactly they are so essential for me i probably would not be able to give any precise reasoning. 

but i can try; because i think these are moments of happiness, and i've been told that being happy is important.

it's a moment when everything feels all right in the world, and everything feels all right within your skin. a moment when you feel strong and light and full of the force that is life, and how could you not; you are, after all, using your body in the way it was meant to be used, and it's functioning and doing what you ask it to do. you run and run and run and your feet take you further and further, and the sun that is shining straight into your eyes seems to be winking at you. you run for hours and it is absolutely incredible, and if saying that aloud makes me seem a bit strange, well i don't really mind at all;  because once you experience the feeling you get from a good long run you really couldn't care less if someone finds it odd.

and i did say that it is difficult to put it into words.

it feels like there is a reserve, a pool of energy that you can access when you run, with each step you get a little bit closer; and the longer you run, the closer you get to it, and everything else fades into the background. things cease to matter so much, and you just keep on running; and eventually the access to that energy is stronger and more clear than you remember it ever being, and this is the bit that gets me every time. 

because every time it feels like the first time even if it's not, that amazing moment, and it makes you so grateful to be able to experience it.  this sense of uniqueness, i feel, is part of the attraction of these moments - you know it's a fleeting sensation, and after it's gone you can't quite remember the full details of it; but you do remember it was a good place to be.