c-c-c-changes

to stick with what you have or what you know - it is more often than not easier than changing your situation. it can be anything - your habits, job, style, apartment, expectations, attitude, social relations, anything at all. the way you think things should be and how they shouldn't be, how you see yourself and how you are in reality; what you do and what you don't do. 

i guess it is both because of the familiarity of the existing conditions and the uncertainty that is brought about the new ones. sometimes you can't be sure if the change is for the better, even if you know that the current state of things isn't ideal either; but at least you know what you are dealing with. like eating in a chain restaurant; you know it's not that great but at least you know it won't make you vomit.  and sometimes the unsurprising mediocrity can be a good thing, too.

perhaps you tell yourself that you will see how it goes for a little while longer; that perhaps something will magically be different in the near future, even if you do nothing about it.  perhaps you are just so used to the way things are that you are not even asking any questions and just follow the path you once started on, not realizing that you yourself are not the same person any more and thus the way you are taking might not be the right one for you after all.

sometimes making the change might feel like a failure; or there might be a sense of embarrassment in the realization that you have been, if not wasting, at least unwisely spending your time. we are so stuck into our manners and tied into our own, fixed viewpoint that it is easy to get blinded by them and continue on a sort of an autopilot - only to possibly end up in a completely wrong destination. 

some people recognize the situations requiring a change better than others, just like there are people more brave and fast in terms of making the decisions as soon as the questions emerge. and of course sometimes, no matter how easy it is for you to change things, sometimes you change them to worse. 

but sometimes change for the sake of change can alone be a good thing; at least you will be in a new place, and maybe from there you will see something you didn't before.