first day of work

i remember always being excited on the first day of school. granted, as i got older the excitement had a twinge of sadness in it -- the start of a new semester also meant the end of summer and the fast approach of winter, something i have grown to resent more and more with every year that passes ever since i was about ten years old. but still, throughout grammar school, high school and university i was always more or less happy to go back.  i like having things to do, and thoroughly enjoy the feeling of change and some kind of development -- what better way to access this than attending an educational facility.

now as i am no longer in any kind of school, the autumn and the end of holidays has lost some of the excitement and special aura it held before. i'm not really going back to anything new, and the potential for development, even if still there on some level, is not of the same kind anymore; so what i am mostly left with is the inevitable fact that the summer is once again coming to its end and yet another dark, miserable and cold winter is a bit closer and here before i know it.

i do like autumn as a season; i love the slightly chilly, fresh mornings and the change of colours in the nature around me. i like the way the tone of the light changes, and how the air feels and smells different. i even enjoy the occasional rain and the greyness that comes along with it -- this of course only in moderation. once the nights start to get longer and the dawn pushes in a later hour i get to see the sunrise again, and i'm really looking forward to the foggy mornings as well, the mornings that make you feel like you are the only person in the world as you run through them. 

so perhaps it is these changes then that i now should be excited about; maybe it is this development of autumn i could focus on. although it must be said that there are such changes to be expected in the somewhat near future that getting through this autumn and the winter to follow will hopefully turn out easier than before; in the meantime, i guess, i should just make the best out of the current situation.

like always.